Perkatory

Dear Younger Self, You’ll Come out on Top

by Sam Dean May 17, 2022

Dear Young[er] Sam,
I want you to remember that you’re a heartfelt and passionate woman. When things get hard, taking a deep breath really does help. Sometimes you just need five minutes away from the situation to get a handle on it. Also, remember to grieve.

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Things I’d Want You to Know

by Jenny Leon May 5, 2022

Dear Younger Self,

Things I’d want to know: you will have a son then a daughter. Both will have your luscious, loose brown curls and wide eyes wrapped in blankets of long, black lashes. Sometimes you will look at them and think “I would, literally, withstand anything for you.” And you will.

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Serenity in the Big Ditch

by Nader Jamal February 23, 2022

Adversity creates a yearning for serenity. With struggle a calm moment is desired, and the appreciation for when it occurs is significant. I first found whitewater learning to kayak in Glacier National Park with First Descents. Anxiety was a real concern I had with anything done around that time.

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Prescription of Nature

by Jesse Collins February 22, 2022

I’m tired. Like to-the-bone weary, at a point where I switch into autopilot mode and float, not present in the moment, or really in the past or future, just tired. So, let’s talk about how I got here. It’s a mix of a glorious adventure in nature and sterile walls and fluorescent lights all in the matter of a week.

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The Overlook

by Brooke Barnes February 17, 2022

Everything is so green. That’s what I remember thinking on the ride back to my apartment after my hospital stay. Being someone who enjoys spending time outside, two weeks of being stuck inside four white hospital room walls with a window overlooking a city street was pretty much torture, especially after a leukemia diagnosis.

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What Do the Holidays Mean to Me Now?

by Chelsey Gomez December 20, 2021

If I had custom ornaments made to commemorate my last three Christmases they would read: Christmas 2018 — “The one where I had cancer.” Christmas 2019 — “The one where I had cancer… again.” 

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Musings on a Cancery Christmas

by Meghan Konkol December 17, 2021

December 21, 2018. Winter solstice. It was the darkest day of the year, and also turned out to be one of the darkest days of my life. The day I was told I had breast cancer. I received the news over the phone from a doctor I barely knew.

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Me Then You

by Sarah Sandoski November 15, 2021

9/6/80. How many times have you been asked for your date of birth, like it’s a code to another level, a password at a locked door? Doctors, nurses, surgeons, pharmacists need this information before they can do their job, which is to take care of you.

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Cancer and Weight

by Siobhan Hebron November 12, 2021

I struggled with body image my entire life. My ‘goal’ figure undoubtedly came from cultural standards, growing up during heroin chic’s heyday in the ‘90s. That goal was similarly praised by my white, middle class family, even if that enforcement went mostly unacknowledged by them.

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Tiger Trials

by Chelsea Morris October 22, 2021

Our knowledge about what breast cancer is, how it works, and treatments for it have come a long way from the first documented cases in 3000BC. At that time there was essentially no understanding about cancer, particularly metastatic types, and the mortality rate for Metastatic Breast Cancer (MBC) sat solidly at 100% for many years.

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