Dear Cancer, What Should I Say to You?
What should I say to you?
Maybe I will start by complaining to you about all the tests, scans, appointments, needle pokes, surgeries, and medications I have endured because of you.Read More...
Dear Cancer, You Need to Behave
Let’s sit down and have a talk.
I am just going to come out and say it: you need to behave. I know you and I are going to be stuck with each other for the rest of my life, but can you at least make things a bit easier?Read More...
Dear Cancer, You are the Great Paradox
You have changed me in more ways than I can count.
First, there was the big change, the news of your existence falling from the sky, scorching the earth of my body, and breaking apart my safe little world. When you arrived, you changed so much.Read More...
Dear Cancer, I am Still the Author of my Own Story
I am learning that while I may not be in control, I am still the author of my own story
You, cancer, are lurking in the shadows,
Waiting for a moment to appear again
in the tender skin on my clavicle.
Dear Cancer, I Would Not Wish You on Anyone
Dear Bladder Cancer,
I have so many mixed feelings about you. I didn’t even know bladder cancer was a thing until the moment I was diagnosed with it. I am angry that you are so common, but no one is talking about you.Read More...
Dear Cancer, I Never Agreed to be With You
May 1, 2022, will be our four-year anniversary. From day one, this “relationship” has only been one sided. I never agreed to be with you and for this to be a “‘till death do us part” commitment. I don’t even know how we became an “item.”Read More...
Dear Cancer, You Were Never Fully in Charge
You are already a power hog, a bully, so I try to ignore you believing that negative behavior is just desperate for attention. Perhaps if I don’t give it to you, you will go away.Read More...
Dear Cancer, Every Cloud Has a Silver Lining
In November 2021, I was diagnosed with you after five weeks of hospital appointments, scans, and blood tests. I was 28 years old. I am 29 years old now and eight cycles into chemotherapy, with four more to go before the next progress scan.Read More...
Dear Cancer, You Have Awakened Me
You showed up when I least expected it. I suppose that’s how it always goes. I remember the air being sucked from my lungs for a brief minute, then, awkwardly, my mind went still, and I just stared out the window.Read More...
Dear Cancer, This Has Not Been a Linear Journey
Last year I wrote you a letter like this one, but now I am in a very different place, and I have a lot more to say. Last year when I wrote to you, I was a 23-year-old patient struggling with the effects of chemo. Now I am a 24-year-old survivor trying to heal and find my footing again.Read More...