Dear Cancer
Each year we ask the AYA cancer community to submit letters to cancer to express their feelings about how cancer has changed their lives. People explore an array of emotions in these letters, including anger, sadness, gratitude, and hope.
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Cold & In the Wide-Open Air
Dear Cancer,
I am so far from
the me who sat in that chair
cold and so afraid.
Dear Cancer, We are Now Forever Intertwined
Dear Cancer,
I knew you were set to come after me. I mean you went after almost every other female in my family, so why wouldn’t you come after me?
Read More...Dear Cancer, It’s Me
Dear Cancer,
It’s me. The one your cells decided to affect with your invasive takeover. It’s me. The one you decided would fight your battle. It’s me. The one that is now advocating for those who cannot anymore. It’s me. The one who cannot fathom why you chose her to survive.
Read More...Dear Cancer, We Acknowledge You
Dear Cancer,
I wish I could paint you as a villain, as so many others have. I wish I could wear the F*$& CANCER shirts and personify myself as a WARRIOR and pretend that cancer is an adversary that can be conquered if you just try hard enough, truly believe, and stay positive. But Cancer, you are not that villain.
Read More...Dear Cancer, I Learned to Live Again
Dear Cancer,
When I found out you were in my body I was scared, mad, and I lost all hope. I hated you for so long for taking my hair, my health, and my hope. I hated you for giving me anxiety, PTSD, and for trying to kill me.
Read More...Dear Cancer, We Have Been on an Adventure
Dear Second Half,
We have been on an adventure for 13 years this April, ironically both of us are celebrating our “birth” on my birthday. I hate you, and at times I am grateful.
You have stolen moments from me that I will never get back. You have limited me in so many ways by constantly throwing a wrench into my plans. After 13 years, you have broken down my body; years of treatment, procedures, tests, hospitalizations, and because you are rare, often a lot of guesswork.
Read More...Dear Cancer, What Should I Say to You?
Dear Cancer,
What should I say to you?
Maybe I will start by complaining to you about all the tests, scans, appointments, needle pokes, surgeries, and medications I have endured because of you.
Read More...Dear Cancer, You Need to Behave
Cancer,
Let’s sit down and have a talk.
I am just going to come out and say it: you need to behave. I know you and I are going to be stuck with each other for the rest of my life, but can you at least make things a bit easier?
Read More...Dear Cancer, You are the Great Paradox
Dear Cancer,
You have changed me in more ways than I can count.
First, there was the big change, the news of your existence falling from the sky, scorching the earth of my body, and breaking apart my safe little world. When you arrived, you changed so much.
Read More...Dear Cancer, I am Still the Author of my Own Story
I am learning that while I may not be in control, I am still the author of my own story
You, cancer, are lurking in the shadows,
Waiting for a moment to appear again
in the tender skin on my clavicle.