Seven Year Cancerversary: An Isolated Celebration
Seven years. I’ve looked forward to today basically all of 2020 so far, as I do every spring. In the dreary winter and rainy spring months, March 18th is the day that I live for, and defines the first quarter of the year for me. But I’m spending it so differently from what I had planned, as I’m sure you are.
Read More...COVID-19 and Cancer Patients
Self-isolation. With COVD-19, that’s what I’m hearing from everyone now. Aldi was completely sold out of meat, and almost of veggies. Sam’s Club was sold out of rice. Everyone, of course, is sold out of toilet paper.
Read More...Reflecting on the Past
I decided to do some reflecting on some of my journal entries from a few years ago. Five years ago to be exact. Five years. That seems like an eternity ago, and just yesterday all in the same moment. Rereading this reminded me of that girl.
Read More...My Body
I stand, looking at you in the mirror. The reflection glaring back is weary with pain and age, unfit for a 25 year old. My back neck is smooth, still devoid of the hair that radiation took from me. My hair finally comes past my shoulders, but it’s taken seven years to do so. My […]
Read More...Hateful and Thankful
Today I told a coworker I don’t cry when I’m sad, only when I’m angry. And as I write this, I’m crying so many angry tears at you. I hate you with all of my being. You ruined the life I had, all my dreams, aspirations, friends, and so much more.
Read More...A Bad Hair Day
Growing up, at the start of every summer my mother would take my sister and I to donate our hair. We donated long, thick black hair to organizations that make wigs for children without hair, never dreaming that one day I’d be one of those kids myself. I didn’t get a wig during my first […]
Read More...Death and Dying
Death has been heavy on my heart the last few weeks, but my sadness tonight is finally overflowing onto this page.
Read More...Adulting: Finding a Primary Care Provider
The dreaded day had finally come – I had to find a new primary care provider….I don’t know about you, but this was the first time in my entire life I’d had to find a doctor.
Read More...The Post Cancer Letdown
It should be the happiest and best time of your life- now that you have one again. But for myself, and so many others, it’s not. I’d say it’s the second worst day, right behind the “You have cancer” day.
Read More...My Music Story
I don’t know what your incredible goal/talent/desire was. But I know that you, dear cancer friends, will face the same struggles. The struggles of not being as accomplished as you once were. The grief of mourning your dreams that will never come true.
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